数到3，泪还停不住。

1月31日，智星一位JJ跟我道别，这一天过后也许不能再见，那么，我要跟她说永别吗？在网络上的人来来往往，有些ID也许说了声HI接下来就是BYE了。BYE完，从此不见人影，MSN的名单里你可以把这个碍位子的名字给删除掉了。有些人也许你从来没机会接触过，可是看他们在论坛留下的点点滴滴，以为跟他很熟悉的样子。每天上网打开论坛、打开MSN那一刻你最期望能看见的名字，即使没有谈话，看见他的名字挂在那里好像特别的窝心。上网不再是为自己，而是为一个同样在不同国度够钟就会挂在那里的人。我一样很天真，天真得我现在才发现我不得不承认自己是白痴。我珍惜这个论坛，那是我这一生人之中第1个注册的华文论坛，即使她不是大马的论坛，她却没有半点的陌生，反而她带给我熟悉的感觉，因为她让我认识到很多来自四面八方的朋友。而他们每一个人都那么都友善、那么的值得珍惜。即使现在，智星渐渐退色不再有以前辉煌的一面，我还想撑下去，我想撑到有一天，你们都会浮上水面。我不愿放弃，因为放弃智星，等於我放弃了在那里认识的网友，放弃了她，他们就没有回来的藉口。放弃她，等於结束我在网上结下的情谊。可是这一天，你们都放弃了，你们都离开了。连你们都不在，你们都不撑下去了，我这个白痴还撑什么呢？

当每个人都各自规划能够让他们自由自在翱翔的天空时，我是不是该学习寻找属於自己的那一片云朵？我不懂得如何为自己开拓一片天空，也忘了怎样伸手捉紧那一片片浮动的云。

放弃智星，是否也意味着放弃因她而认识的每一个人？真的很难过，说放手太容易，可是心放不下。

数到3，能不能别哭

1月30日，我错失了见一班朋友的机会。有些像刚从中国放寒假回来的斌斌，也许我们要几年后再见了。数年后，我们，还能像以往那样无话不谈吗？我希望，是。这一天，会是我进入校记团第8年以来参加的第7次新春联欢会。这么多年来我两次缺席到PENANG的全国营，一个我认为属於整个团最大型的活动。然而，我不曾缺席过一次新春联欢会，这一天，我第1次缺席，换言之，这有可能会是我最后一次关心新春联欢会。对不起，其实我很想见你们，可是心理很不舒服，赖在床上昏昏沉沉的，想起身这个动作好像很难很难。我害怕每次聚会后的道别、我讨厌每次大家开的空头支票，“得闲出来饮茶”，这个“得闲”似乎遥遥无期、我不喜欢每出席一个活动曾经一起走过的日子历历在目、我会难过为甚么这一切只能在缅怀中出现、我会伤心身边的朋友一个个离开、我会不舍得你们、我会一直挂念你们。

天真的我以为，没有校记团我不会认识到你们每一个人，所以我不会放弃校记团，即使他跌到谷底我都想撑下去，我想撑到有一天，你们都会回来。我不愿放弃，因为放弃校记团，等於我放弃了我的朋友，放弃了校记团，你们就没有回来的理由。放弃他，等於结束我们的友谊。这段时间，我撑得很辛苦很累真的很累。我可以放弃了吗？

他们说夫妻之间流传一句话叫“7年之痒”，在校记团的第8年，我真的撑不住了。可是，我放不下。我该怎么办？

IVC Server Down

There was an officer news came from Fanny, last term result released in this afternoon. Every centre received the result and start uploading to IVC. However, we failed to loging in the Exam sites.

I have visited MOPYX and saw some Hong Kong's students have checked their result at 3pm.(WHY?WHY they can get their result so early? Howcome HongKong People so fast motion? Nope, I shall says, WHY?WHY Malaysian move so SLOWWWWW!!!BehTahanLah! Everytime gotta wait wait wait!Wait till Sea dry Rock Mashed!!) Aii~Most of them failed in network paper especially CS261(Advanced In Networking). Arrrrr~~~ I cannot stand anymore ~~ GOSH!!!

啊利花轰

今天突然很感性，呃~感性这个词用在我身上似乎很不适合，我改！重来！ROLL机！利利啦啦TAKE 2！321ACTION！嗯，是的我开始花轰了，不知道自己花什么轰什么，只觉得很多很多压抑的思念一直不断在侵袭着。许多的画面涌现出来，很多很久不见的脸孔浮现出来，一些亲朋好友、知心的、萍水相逢的、普通朋友的还是一些有聊天过的网友。。。很多曾经经历的一幕幕像停不下来的复印机不停的闪动着。要不是我现在还能打字，我真的害怕那是回光返照。我真的害怕。

在MSN GRP连续轰炸了一个下午，听什么歌都很闷闷不乐。05年了，还是改不了坏习惯，真的很气。好气那不受控制的眼泪让思绪在为所欲为。气！！！！

AMCCO Gathering

Dear all, AMCCO gathering will be held at AMC music room on the 12th of Feb (the 4th day of CNY), at 12 noon. We will probably be having a buffet lunch (plus and minus RM15 per person).

**Don’t miss the golden chance to meet your long lost juniors and seniors and our Ms. Tai and Mr. Lim!**

Please pass this message around, and please contact Shiherr ASAP to book a place! Please confirm the booking before this Friday (28th of January) so that we can prepare the food.

手的看法

那天看了zwings的新作手牵手，有感她不当作家真的很浪费。我很羡慕她可以用物件来带出主题的这种写法，可以让读者有无限的想象空间。如果问我对於手有什么看法？我会很响往一对害怕牵手时手心冒汗、每天勤力的涂护肤霜到有一天无名指间夹着一颗几卡拉的钻石，再到大手牵小手，一直到满手皮皱皱了还要用枝拐杖来帮忙支撑着全身重量的手。说响往，也许是两条鱼星座的人开始旧病复发了！我想，zwings是被我这不解风情的人给气煞了吧？我忘了当时她的问题是什么，大概就是：“你怎么形容自己的手？手有什么用途？会不会嫌弃他还是什么的”
我说：“那是一对护士要用力拍几下才找到青筋把管子插进去抽血的手。”“手呀，需要他来干活。没有手，我现在就没办法跟你在MSN打字聊天了！我不会嫌弃我的手，因为我找不到可以让我讨厌他的理由。”嗯~如果现在真的要找一个讨厌的理由，我会说“”剪指甲很麻烦，留长指甲更麻烦，打字弄断指甲还是匆匆忙忙关抽屉夹到手指时。。。一个字，痛！也许那一杀那很痛，可是如果你不把裂开的指甲剪掉会很难看、也会再刺进肉里那时会更痛。夹在抽屉的手指，始终需要有一只手先把抽屉拉开，手指才能从里面 抽出来，毕竟抽屉不会自动打开给你。你会因为一次夹痛的经验，而把整个书桌改成开放式没有抽屉的吗？我不会！也许我还没痛入心坎里？然而，我希望在痛着的朋友可以早日把手指从抽屉里抽出来。

留长指甲，需要耐心去打理，这次打理不好，剪短后再留吧！新长出来的会更好看的！这
次的指甲油，可能不衬你，换过一个吧！市面上还有那么多的牌子、那么多的颜色种类，总有一个会合你心水！

Gunung Rapat

蓝星为了光华特地下来怡保，原本早上雯雯说谈光华的事，我就很懒出去了。加上阿~最近~其实呢~外面天气很热，然后我又不想被晒黑窝。。。 (突然很会找理由)结果，我们还是见面了。在位於昆仑喇叭的马佛那里还有家仪、阿BEAR，她们俩上星期去开会时见工委对一件小工作都很有“礼让”精神，沉不住气却扛下了布置、戏剧等工作。原先是说去讨论团务，结果大家都变成帮忙布置黏报纸。呃~发现雯雯很会剪胶纸噢，速度是蓝星的3倍。家仪没跳舞负责黏报纸的样子其实。。。没什么分别。(哈哈)阿BEAR是个不按牌理出牌的人，随手拿到的报纸不管是什么尺寸都照黏下去。。。总结，蓝星、雯和我是什么正经事都没有谈到的。(惭愧)对了，要谢谢雯雯带我去马佛还有教我们搭BUS，现在我会从AYAM MAS搭车去GUNUNg RAPAT了！

有人不是工委，可是他们愿意付出，背负责任和卸下责任的付出，并不是在於兴趣，是一颗真诚的心。--------我的心在冰厨里雪藏着

Color Test

LIME

You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things.<<==== (Walau! Accurate leh~ ) You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you. <<==== (UMM~~ I don't think so~)

剪不断·理还乱

下午去了理发店把杂草般的头发剪掉，这次是最长的一次吧。当我说要剪LAYER到肩膀时，理发师突然问“你舍得的拉 ？”唉，这个问题就好像当你兴致勃勃的说“我要把头发染紫色、我要剃光头、我要电爆炸头、我要绑RONALDINHO的黑人头。。。” 当你说完时身边就会有朋友杀风景的一句“你敢的啦？” 为了逞强通常我们都会说“为什么不敢？我明天就去！” 这一次，真的有点不舍，不懂为什么会有那么莫名其妙的感觉。嗯，可能觉得可惜暂时没得扮贞子了吧！

＊如果剪发不能剪断愁绪，那么留发不剪，可不可以就没有离别？＊

Snail Mail

I went to snail mail at post office today.I thought in this century seldom people send cards but i am wrong! This thinking is absolutely wrong! There is a long long queue at post office.Aii~ wasting time for the queue. It has been long time i din't write letter and I can't remember how long is my last receive of mail from buddy. I like to receive letter than reading mail on a cool, flat screen. The feel is totaly difference. I hope everyone who received my mail can feel the happiness. I forget to get one CNY card for bro. Actually, I never think of sending card to him but mum says bro. have moved out and have his own family so as a "traditional" I have to send him card.(HaHa~ What type of traditional culture is this? This is my mum...aii~)

NAMA KHAS

JOEY跟我说，上星期她的马来文老师教她们NAMA KHAS。当老师要求班上同学各自举例时，其中一位同学说“STEPHEN CHOW”，老师很配合的说“Oh~Kung fu Hustle juga nama khas!” 全班便做了个星爷在巴士上像眼镜蛇看到敌人的动作“Shh~~~~~ ”

我想，有些时候做错了未必需要指责，换一个方向或许更能清楚纠正过来。可惜每当有人犯错，我们都忘了需要包容，表面上看似改了，却是换汤部换药。

绝对痴心·手放开

初时在收音机听见DJ播痴心绝对这首歌蛮好听的，好像还有几个不同REMIX版本。只听歌声，我把他误以为是郑宗基~前天听到电台介绍才像发现新大陆般。“OH~李圣杰” (UMM~何方神圣？)

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Penang

Tomoro, oh no, i should say that is today i am going to Penang with Atuktuk, AhYee and HuiYing. We are going to watch the Chinese Orchestra performance in Penang Town Hall. I thought mum won't let me go to watch this concert since everyone is so worried after the Tsunami Disaster. However,this time mum is so opened-minded but bro. said my nature is similar to dad "like to lepak more than staying at home." =_=!

Table Reservation

I went to order new year dinner with mum at Heritage Hotel and a vegetarian restaurant near KwongWah. Nowadays everyone is so kiasu , many tables being reserved since 2 months ago. Aunt. Ming and Mei is coming back to celebrate CNY with us in Ipoh so mum decided not to have dinner at home for CNY eve and the 1st CNY day. The set dinner's price at Heritage Hotel is extremely high! However, mum is tired to prepare dinner and i think she is physically and mentally out of energy for her to stand whole day for preparing food for us. Although it is expensive but it may be a good decision that we have dinner "outsource" ! =P Me "keh poh" in Kwong Wah awhile when pass by, Asu said JiaChee is having training there. I am slightly a bit slow walk in to meet JiaChee, When i arrived, she gone home.

Tsunami Fund

I received the message from Maxis which ask us to join in helping the Tsunami victims through sms. SMS to 22999 from now till 31/1/05 .Each sms contributes RM1/= as donation. It says that there is no SMS charges. I am wonder whether is it true since Digi and Celcom charges their customer RM4/= per message. Today read trhough Sin Chew Daily, i saw HongDongKai represent Sin Chew to be one of the reporter in ÃÞ兰. Hope everyone is safe and healthy. =P

New favour at MC' China

New favour at MC' China
Originally uploaded by fanxing.

RMB12/= Chicken Pie

New Year 2005

I am back !! First time i see snowing and cold like inside the refrigerator which under -7 degrees. First time having dinner before 6pm and stay in the room at 8pm. First time wearing like a dumpling but still feeling cold when the wind blow~ Have a nice journey, learn a lot and gain some experince there. I failed to buy souvenior to frenz , really sorry about that. It is difficult to buy things to others when follow a tour and expecially in such a bad weather.

Mine is just a small tour with around 20 person, the tour guide "Xiao Jiang" is very kind. Unfortunately, it is still a "rush tour". Feeling tired now. Those shopping area are promoting the winter costumes so it is not convenience to our weather in Malaysia. I din't buy much things, just bought some CD, shoes, and 2 sutera blanket to mum and bro. However, bro. refused to received it, he says he would buy himself if next time he go for tour.

Other then that, it is sad to heard the Tsunami Disaster during my tour. This morning, i read through previous news, Gurney in Penang and a island in Teluk Intan got affected too. Whats a sad shocked to the world. We never know that Malaysia can have killer wave. I wish we are just watching "The Day After Tommorow".